This morning at 3:45 am, Jacek turned 19 years old. How can that be? I'm amazed how fast it all went. I can remember the early years as if they were yesterday. Time is a funny thing were the days are long, but the years are short. I had his picture taken by professional photographers A LOT the first year, especially the first few months. The top photo is the first one photo session when he was only a few weeks old.
He was born at LDS Hospital in Salt Lake City and we were living in Park City at the time. We lived in a little townhouse in Silver Springs by the ski resort The Canyons, but we moved to a cabin/house in Summit Park when Jacek was only 6 weeks old.
These photos of him in the primary color jumpsuit are some of my favorite. He looks like a little elf with the hat on.
It was my dream to being a mom and have children to make my life complete. It's what I had always wanted to do, even when I was a little girl.
It surprises me how much I wanted children as I didn't really like to babysit when I was growing up. I didn't particularly love watching kids. I was an aunt when I was 7 years old, so I grew up with lots of nieces and nephews. My little brother is 5 years younger than me, so I always had little kids around me.
But I knew when Jacek was born, that I had fulfilled my life long dream of becoming a mom. I was obsessed with him. My heart burst open wide from the moment I held him in my arms. You know, logically, that your life with become different after having kids, but you never really understand fully until it happens.
I enjoyed every stage of development with Jacek. I never wished for the time to go by quickly to get from one phase to the next. I was pretty grounded in my knowing that time would fly by and not to rush. I never pushed weaning, toilet training, solo sleeping, or any of the major transitions. Jacek was not one for liking transitions anyway. I had to prepare him for transitioning from play or any activity that involved a major shift. He taught me not to hurry, but to slow down and enjoy the ride.
I am so grateful for this wonderful son who came into my life and changed my world, for the better. I had imagined raising daughters for some reason when I was young, but I wouldn't trade my sons for anything. I love boys and the energy they bring into the world.